How quickly it changes

Yesterday started fine following a great holiday time with family and then before I knew it things were pressing in and I was feeling helpless and suffocated. Things were not working out and I began to freeze. I can't stand when that happens, you can almost seeing it coming but there does not seem to be a way to stop it. The smallest things become insurmountable. Things did improve last night spending sometime at an adult marriage study and thinking about how blessed I am with the wife that I have. I cannot imagine this road without her although she could probably imagine it without me when I am messed up.

Todays' gloom did not help but I was blessed to get a call from a friend who reminded me that the sun is still shining even when the clouds are out, we just have to get above our clouds to see it. Now I might have taken that the wrong way if I did not know that God had laid it on his heart to share that with me and it was the main reason he called. I thank God for friends and family who love me in spite of who I am.

Sometimes being loved is hard to accept. We feel unworthy and yet they continue. It is a glimpse at what Gods' love towards us is like, perfect and unbiased. Learning to let ourselves be loved is not easy but it is worth it. All of my dreams and aspirations are tied together with those who love me. And God loves me most and you too!