All is not always as it appears

Beautiful day today. After the crummy start it was a classic fall day with plenty of sunshine, colors and a great breeze that should have made everything seem alive. Somehow, it did nothing for me and it was a torturous struggle most of the day. Even stopped on the way home to try to get some exercise and sun by climbing Burger Hill in Rhinebeck and it all just kind of seemed surreal, as if I was just watching someone else. The views were fantastic, I suppose, but everything seemed to be veiled and dull to me. As hard as I was trying, I just did not break through. Melancholy is the only word that fits how I feel right now and the worst part is there does not seem to be any trigger for it.