Monday, October 5, 2009
The bottom looks familiar
It did not take long for today to start to crash and burn. Frustrated by my lack of decision making I started to retreat and spiral downward. Trying to avoid confrontation just had me bottling it up and shutting down, Fortunately, I could sense what was happening and forced myself to try to move forward. Thinking of yesterday seemed to help and before you know it I was bordering on productive. I guess what is so hard to manage is the anger that just seems to ride under the surface, waiting for an opening to show its' ugly head. I wonder sometimes how people put up with me when I am like that. Walked the dog and played with her when I got home and that was good. Beautiful sunshine again helped. Things seem okay now.
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Tuesday October 6
ReplyDeleteGot home late last night from a trip to Cave Creek AZ. Spent the weekend with family I had not seen in twenty+ years. It was wonderful!!!
Now 12 hours later I am back in NY thinking about the money I spent and not the memories I gained. I don't want to think about the money end of this great weekend because it brings me down and makes it seem that I did not enjoy this visit. Writing this will hopefully help me, along with GOD forget about money and be greatful that I that I had this time with my family.
You probably would be hard pressed to find someone more frugal than I am and I constantly struggle with buyers remorse. That said, you know in your heart that the weekend was well worth it and as time moves on you will see it for what it was, a great time with family. Do not let the devil steal your joy from this moment!
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